I haven't been feeling well. I had some free time during the holidays. So I have been watching Glee. Now, I understand the function of escapist TV shows. How they can lull us, help us stay in denial, tells us that "everything's gonna be fine". In a largely secular world, popculture takes over religion's job. (In being the opium of the poor, and more.) That's just how large highly hierarchized groups of humans roll. Yet I engage in it. On some level, if I could, I would ONLY ever watch TV shows and never do anything else, ever. Seriously. The more I watch it, the more insensitive I grow towards the problematic parts of it. I just crave the warmth and fuzziness. But this here is still hard to buy into: Maybe because I'm jealous for not having had the middle class "western world" teenager experience (but honestly, how many people do have that?). Or because the agephobia sickens me? Or because it's just a really stupid thing to do with my time, getting all ecstatic about being young and privileged. Anyways, that particular performance just pisses me off.